…Okay now I’m pissed off. …Well I’ve pissed myself off really but I also hate the world! sdfghjkl;
So yeah, I wanna go out, and more people seem to be hopping on board now. I really just wanna celebrate and end my “summer” properly before I move home to that shithole that I loathe. (It’s literally like living in the middle of the nowhere with nowhere to even go).
But I knew this was coming! I knew it, I kept mentioning it and everything.
I get a bad chest infection every year either when Autumn or Winter starts. Idk if its to do with the weather changing or not, and this is apparently common, but its always worse for asthmatics, especially those with bad asthma, and… that’s me.
Last year my sickness lasted 2 weeks.
I was just reading up on chest infections and it says the “mild” one’s usually last 10 days.
I’m sitting here struggling to breathe and my head hurts and I’m making plans to go out?
sdfgvhnjvgednrgjrkengjrkegnrgnr raaaaaaaaaaaage raaaaaaaaaaaaage
Why, God, whyy???
You gave me my period on the first day of my TRX gym training programme, and then a mo.nth later you gave me it on the first day of college
AND HERE YOU ARE MAKING MY BREATHING BAD AND I WANNA GO OUT AND DANCE THE NIGHT AWAY ;A;
Srsly, I hate being in this house. It drives me nuts. There’s never a moment of peace and if my only choice is LOUDNESS, I’d rather be surrounded by people/music I actually like.
Pleaaaaaaaaaaase let me be better by Saturdaaaaaaay.
i know I’m meeting up with an old friend who I haven’t seen in two years on Friday but we’re only going to get some tea, so I can handle that.
If I wanna get better then I need to stay in bed, but I can’t miss another day of college, I’m behind and we only freakin started oTL
Blaaah, I’ve pretty much overdosed on my inhaler today so I’m gonna have to take the damn nebuliser before bed. (I hate that thing, it makes me super shaky and it doesn’t last that long when you have a chest infection).
In Bnei Brak, an Israeli city whose population is mostly ultra-orthodox, there is a disturbing phenomenon - advertising signs with images of women on them are being ripped by ultra-orthodox men who believes that women should only be shown dressed modestly enough. The sleeves must cover the elbows, skirts must hide the knees and hair should be hidden as well.
The Israeli advertising agency “Twisted" decided to use that habit, and created a poster that hides another poster under it. 24 hours after the sign was hanged, the picture of the model was ripped and the message was exposed:
International Day for the Elimination of Violence against Women
oh that’s brilliant.
So my internet has been out for a week so I’m pretty much paying like… a euro for every hour I’m on this damn thing now >.>
That’s why I’m only popping on.
My bill a month is €10. Was €20 but we got a discount or something?? And that’s, like, an awesome amount (given the fact that this internet stick is SHIT).
But that’s only if you stay under the 20BG. Watching Free, Haikyuu, HxH, Kuroshitsuji and Nozaki kun per week wasted that PRETTY fast. An ep was like a GB alone so…
So I’ve used almost €30 of this stupid stick so far, and then add on the €10, so its currently at €40 :(
It resets in four days, but the thing is… I’m moving back home in 6 days, so… when the stick resets, I won’t really need it? Sure I’ll need it for the 2 days before I move, but once we move home, there’ll be proper fast awesome wifi that I still have to pay for but it really IS only €10 a month for that one and its awesome!
So I’m thinking, okay, I’ll have those two days free. But, I’m also going out Saturday night (to hopefully a gay bar so I can score with some chick) or just… out in general cause I wanna celebrate my last weekend here with everyone.
I don’t think the lads are gonna agree to a gay bar tho. …Except Adam, cause he gay.
So I’ll prob have to change location or just go out with the few of my girls I have left (one of them is in Cork for a romantic weekend with her bf, the other lives in Sweden for a year cos of the erasmus, the other lives in Scotland and the other lives in Australia for those same reasons, and then one of them is just broke), but idk if it’ll be fun with just me and the five of us that are left. I mean if they’re up for it, then I’d totally be down with it.
So yeah, if I go out Sat, obv I won’t be home till bout 4 or 5 am, and my internet will be back. But I prob won’t wake up that Sunday till bout 10 (if I’m LUCKY and SOME PEOPLE dont decide to have their early morning CHATS under my room). But then I have the rest of the day to do internet stuff!
Well maybe, actually…
Cause, well, I’m currently super sick.
I have a chest infection mixed in with the flu so yeah, I feel like I’m dying. But I’m HOPING thats gone by Saturday :’D If it goes earlier then I can pack! But idk if that’ll happen. I think it’ll only be gone by Saturday and then I’ll have to pack all day Sunday >.>
Since I have 2 days to waste the 20 GB on this stick cause I won’t need it by Tuesday, I was gonna watch that Seven Deadly Sins anime because I wanna see who their Greed is :’)
I guess I’ll just let this week go with the flow.
Hopefully I get better soon cause I really need to get outta this house or get SOME form of distraction.
the southern US genuinely scares me like my map of ‘states i will willingly go to for college’ looks more or less like
if you’re coming to the us this is a good travel guide fyi <3
thats pretty ignorant tbh
so are the racist and prejudiced people who live in those areas
so this is what i ended up with for the “make your audience angry” assignment
i dont know about ya’ll but that phrase pisses me right the hell off
Side tip: if anyone ever grabs your hair like the above, clamp one hand HARD down on your scalp where the hair is coming out (think of how you try to immobilize your hair when brushing tangles out so it doesn’t hurt as bad, only do so at the scalp and not further down the hair). Then use your other hand to start hitting the other person (go for the face!) and blocking any blows they may try to make with their free hand. You can also step into them (which removes the tension on your hair) and start throwing your knees into their groin, stomach, kick the side of their knee, etc.
The reason hair-pulling works is A) it HURTS and B) it’s an effective handle, especially because your instinct is going to be to pull away. But reduce the pain and the tension on the hair and you have more room to work with until the other person lets go, at which point you can run like hell or otherwise defend yourself as needed.
do u ever look at someone’s characterization of one of ur faves and just sit there offended on behalf of the character
Every night, no matter how tired I am, I have to wait for my dad to decide to go to bed. Because if my dads not in bed, the TV is loud, people play music and talk on the phone. All that jazz.
Then at whatever point my dad decides to FINALLY go to bed, which is always some point after 11, I have to try and get to sleep before my mam comes up because her snoring, once it starts, keeps me awake all night.
So I have a fucking time slot every night.
After dad, before mam.
I just… ya know, I deal. Like I deal with everything else. I’m constantly treated unfairly but I deal.
So my dad goes to bed, and everyone does the expected - lowers the tv and music and keeps their voices low - and so I quickly jump into bed because I’m WRECKED and I’ve been DYING to sleep (I’ve just been staring at the ceiling most of the day after coming home, waiting for that moment), and then prickface decides cause hE doesn’t have to be up early, he’ll have a chat on the phone, but nowhere near my dads room, oh no. Just mine.
Cause who gives a shit about me?
The fact that its one of the million things I get in trouble for constantly, literally just wanting to go to bed, is absolutely baffling to me
If I stayed up all night on the internet and went into college the next day and they could tell I was tired, they’d say, “Your fault for not getting off the fucking computer, isn’t it?”
But I haven’t gone to bed late in soooooooooooooooooo long. How long? Idek! All throughout summer I was always in bed before 1, pretty much!
So I start going to bed early and THEY’RE the ones keeping me up, but nobody has anything to say about that, do they?
No, really, I must be really really strong to survive this family. The family that keeps pressuring me to go back to Florida with them and I constantly refuse because the last time I went, it was literally one of the worst three weeks of my life and I said I’d never do it again
Basically they did what they do to me here, but I felt so confined. I’d nowhere to go. I had no TV to distract me, there was no wifi, I never left the house to walk down streets I didn’t know. I couldn’t nap THERE either because my room was right next to the living room and the TV is never off and is ALWAYS loud.
All I ended up doing was reading the three Hunger Games books to stop me from crying and doing something drastic. Those books actually saved me.
I felt isolated and frustrated as hell being over there, wishing daily to come home, and they want me to go back and get treated the same again???
It’s just, at least over here I can vent online or go for a walk or leave and go ANYWHERE that I know.
It was torture over there, and I’m always told how grateful I should be for getting the chance to be in Florida and Disney and all that crap. Hey, if you wanna take my shoes, go ahead. Try not to kill yourself when you experience the things I do.
How have I not had a mental breakdown at this point?
I literally live the Cinderella lifestyle every fucking day.
Evil (step) mother and two ugly fucking
sisters brothers who she favours and gives EVERYTHING to
Literally ALL I’m fucking asking for is to SLEEP
Its 12 AM
I AM UP AT 6
This is EVERY GODDAMN NIGHT.
BE FUCKING QUIET YOU BUNCH OF WORTHLESS PRICKS
When I want to ever listen to music, I put my earphones in. Whether its from my phone or my laptop. So as not to distuuuuuuuuuurb anyone.
Aaron doesn’t. Aaron walks around the whooooooooole house with his phone on full volume dishing out the rave music and nobody says nothing.
He does this at SEVEN AM
And he continues to do it WHILE IM IN BED AT NIGHT AS WELL
So as FUCKING REVENGE
I always take my earphones out and blare my music and who is told to lower theirs down? MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
But now, oh NOW, because he’s “sick”, he’s allowed to stay up chatting on the phone in the room right under mine.
If he was in the room next to or under my mam or dads while they were asleep, they’d tell him to shut the fuck up, cause it inconveniences theeeeeeem
But I go down and say that I’m up in 6 hours and its gonna take me a fucking hour to get to sleep regardless, I’m told to “shut the fuck up and get out of me face”
This is every night
I’m a college student
I came home wrecked and with an awful headache today
My house is loud 24/7 so unlike my mam who could sleep even if we were being BOMBED, there is no such thing as a “nap” for me
It doesn’t exist
She has a full nights sleep
She gets the hosue to herself for 6 hours where she sleeps through half of it (I know when I stay home from not needing to be in or if I’m sick of whatever)
She even has another nap later on that day when she’s bored with nothing to do
And she thinks I’m being an “irrational sarcastic toerag” for wanting to GO TO BED at NIGHT TIME so I can GET UP FOR COLLEGE
THE THING THAT WILL HOPEFULLY GET ME A DEGREE
AND THEN A JOB
AND THEN I CAN MOVE AWAY FROM ALL YOU FUCKERS AND PRETEND THAT YOU NEVER FUCKING EXISTED
I can hear her - BITCHING to her 17 year old BRAT about how much she hates me, and she’s being LOUD on purpose
I told her she was an emotionally abusive mother the other day and she started cursing and calling me names, like… how daaaaaare I ever tell her what she truly is
Nobody here needs to be up until bout 7.
If I was loud I’d get given out to like a 10 year old
Everyone always makes sure they’ve something to yell at me for
But ya know what?
I dont give a shit
I’ll be anything BUT quiet at 6 am tomorrow
I’m too pissed off to give a damn about what happens
Sorry dad who has to work all day but when it comes to my problems he ignores them and pretends he’s not involved. You’re GOING to be involved whether you like it or not
You’re almost as bad as that evil witch at this point